Month: July 2019

Confession pt. 2

Dear MH,

I hope you’ve thought about what I said. And I hope you’ve made a choice. This isn’t an ultimatum but eventuality and coming to terms. I want to grow with you. I want a future that involves us. Nurturing and caring for each other.

And if you can’t make that decision, I hope you’ll be ok when I eventually leave you. Because I want more and if you don’t that’s ok. I don’t want you to change your plans for me just to make me happy. I want changes that benefit both of us.

I want to be by your side. I want to soothe your brow when I see doubt and regret creep into your face. You’re amazing, funny, easy, warm and big hearted. And when you kiss me I feel it deep inside of me. A little spark.

Have you ever felt that way about me?

Confession

Dear GT

I really need to talk to you about something. I want to be as honest and open with you as possible, because I’ve had a great time with you. Because you’re a really awesome guy who I don’t want to hurt.

Before you, there was this guy. He and I were casual for a couple years. More recently I told him I felt things for him. And I gave him space to decide. And I went out on a couple dates. The first was horrid. And the second one was you. You threw me completely off course. You made me forget for a moment where my heart laid. And I admit I got really scared after you left my house. Because I felt like I had tricked you into liking me. I didn’t mean for things to develop so quickly, but it was hard not too. I felt a lot of chemistry between us. I felt comfortable and at ease. I felt cared for.

I don’t know what else to say. I’m sorry a million times over. You deserve the best GT. You’re kind and funny. Genuine and compassionate. I have been the lucky one.

Good night

I lay in bed last night

Shaved, scrubbed, moisturized.

Wearing only the undershirt you left

From the last time.

No undies

Just silky Thunder thighs

A storm brewing

Between these soft clouds you’ve laid your head on a hundred times

My skin trying to remember

Your touch

Your grip

Your lips

My hands try to mimic yours

But there is no substitute

You

I just want to love you

Support you

Ask you how’s your day been

Kiss you good morning and good night

Know what’s on your mind

When you’re looking stressed

Make you dinners

That make you want to come home quicker

I want to learn with you

Plan with you

Build with you

I want to ease your ills

And hype up your triumphs

I want all of you

And in return I hope you want the same

Ante up

I put all my cards on the table last night

Hoping and wishing you’d feel the same

I knew the house always wins

But I’d gamble it all away.

For a chance

For a thrill

For Us

The thought of winning

For once was greater

Than the fear of losing